Open Letter To Remus Lupin
I have goosebumps all over my hands as I begin to write this letter. It seems to me that my letter will reach you, that you will open it in your usual calm manner and read it. I believe you will smile and write back to me. This seems more like me expressing my love for you than a letter of mere admiration.
A scarred (reference intended) childhood, a struggling teenage, and a strenuous adulthood did not affect the human that you grew up to be. All the hardships that you endured would often damage a person from within. But that was not the case with you. You remained strong. Calm, yet fiercely strong.
I believe, my love, that you deserved so much more than you got. You deserved respect, you deserved dignity, you deserved more time and most importantly you deserved more love. There has not been a person more in need of love than you. There has not been a person more deserving to be loved than you. Yet, there has not been any other person so poorly loved. It was only during some of your last days that you got a glimpse of what should have been yours forever in the form of Tonks, and for that, Tonks, I am grateful to you.
The BEST DADA teacher should have been given so much more time. Rowling definitely did not do justice to your character. Tell me, after Dumbledore was it not you who managed to calm the impulsive Harry? Was it not you, who convinced Harry to have faith in Dumbledore above everything else? Was it not you, who despite the past issues, defended Snape’s name? Even though Snape single-handedly managed to ruin your career, you did not hold it against him. In fact, you gave him credit for keeping your “furry problem” at bay with the Wolfbane Potion during your stay at Hogwarts as a teacher.
If I were to be given the choice of reviving one character, I would bring you back. Although, I still feel your presence. I am THAT much in love with you. I wish I could imprison myself in the pages of the books that are blessed with your presence. I wish I could redo and undo certain things and prevent you from losing your job at Hogwarts. I wish I could take the killing curse instead of you because you deserved to live more than I ever will.
I wish I could give you more time with your child, Remus. I wish I could at least let him know how much you loved him. I wish I could let him know how brave his father was, how he had feared, how he made mistakes, how imperfect he was and how he managed to make things perfect for everyone else.
If I were to be given the liberty to make one change in the legendary Harry Potter series, I would have modified it in a way to give you what you deserved. I had heard, read and even seen people falling in love with fictional characters but with you, I experienced it. I am legitimately in love with you. No, do not try to convince me that it is a mere crush and that you were alive only in the pages of the books. Because I know, I know you are real and you are there somewhere. I will find you out, Remus.